Enjoy or Despise?

There are a lot of things in life that are enjoyable and a few things in life that I despise but there are very few things in life that I both enjoy and despise. At first thought my kids would go on this short list because I love them, I enjoy being with them but sometimes I despise the trials, sleepless nights, and their terrible two's (or at least Ryan's terrible two's since Lexy's was no big deal-Boys are insane and crazy!!!). That being said, I could never put my kids on this list because they are far too cute and Ryan's shoulder shrug turns my frustration into laughter every time.



Example: "Ryan, stop climbing on the counter while hitting your sister and trying to open the benadryl bottle for the 12th time today!!!"
He ignores me so I walk over to Ryan, grab his head and turn it towards me and put my head about 6 inches from his face and say. "Ryan, lets get down from the counter, stop hitting your..." before I finish I get whacked across the face by my 2 year old sons open hand.
"WHAT THE, NO HITTING RYAN, YOU GET TIMEOUT!!!" I carry Ryan over to timeout and he looks at me, smiles, shrugs his shoulders and then tries to give me a hug. I walk away laughing and glad that kids are so loving even after daddy scolds them.

Another thing that would make onto my E-D list would be running. Some days it is so relaxing to be running on a trail removed from the chaos of society as the light rain kisses the back of your neck and the green grass tickles your legs. Other days I despise running, the pounding, the longboarders, the sweat in my eyes, the fact that somehow the Beach Boys made it onto my Ipod. Running is something that i look forward to and something I try to avoid.

It always feels good to go run and stretch out the old hammies but sometimes the hammies scream mutiny. In my head the debate will rage on each time lace up the ol'shoes. Do I enjoy doing this or do I despise it? Do i run because I enjoy running or is it a means to an end? Does the small glimpses of peace and tranquility of the run out weigh the sore mussels? I definitely enjoy the result of running and by that I mean the long term results of staying in shape and under 200 pounds not the short term results of sore legs and the occasional blister. To be honest, I think the reason I enjoy running most is because it gives me an excuse to spend time with my brothers. It gives me the opportunity each and every time to push myself and prove to myself that yes I can do it. I can run up suicide hill without stopping, I can run down from squaw peak in 30 minutes, I can run faster then all of my brothers.

I love the challenge, I enjoy running but I could do without the fatigue.